Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The awkward stage

I thought for sure after the horrendous awkward stage I went through from about 10 'til about 17 (man, that's a long time to be awkward) that I was in the clear and wouldn't have to deal with any more awkward stages...at least physically.  Unfortunately no one told me that the beginning of pregnancy is equipped with a lovely awkward stage of its own.   And honestly, I'm a little surprised and disappointed in myself and my handling of the situation.  So what is it??
I don't look pregnant.  I do look like I hung around just a bit too long at the open refrigerator AND the drive thru AND the Golden Corral buffet.  All in the same night.  To make matters worse I've always worn pretty form fitting shirts because I'm disproportional and clothes aren't made for me (that's a sob story all its own).  So my belly is even more noticeable.  I deem this stage the "is she fat or is she pregnant?" stage.  And I'm not a fan.  Once it's obvious I'm pregnant I'll be fine.  I wish I could just embrace what is happening and be super thankful that it's finally here but instead I'm worrying about what people think when they look at me.  I am acutely aware that 99.9% of people who see me aren't paying nearly enough attention to notice.  But I notice and it's bugging me.  So please, can we zoom through this "is she fat or is she pregnant" and get to the "oh, she's definitely pregnant"?  Either that or I'm going to start wearing a sign pointing to my belly that says "I'm pregnant."  Or I could just walk around with "baby on board" written across my stomach because that's not awkward at all.  I'll feel better when we move on.  Which is stupid, but I will. :-P  Anyone else go through this stage???

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